truth emerges...shift happens

Can you believe it...a month has passed by, and life seems to be shifting for me again.
I've been led to a new pathway.   The courage to take the steps.
I was kind of trying to get out of a loop that I was having. 
And it never fails to amaze me how the universe brings the right information to lead you to the next right step.  
I have been resting more, and writing in my journal more, and then I ran across this YouTube post by Brene Brown, it caught my eye...because it was speaking to my heart. 
It read, "When love Fades". 
I don't know how it came on my feed...as I don't think I have listened to any of her content. 
But it not only caught my eye, I listened to it twice, its words washed over me as I recognized everything, she was saying was my life...and the words mediocre marriage came to my mind.  I looked it up and it was worse than I thought.  Before the second whole repeat of the segment, I was having a tender moment of realization, an awakening to the realization that our marriage needed a separation from each other for a while.  My husband and I quietly and truthfully spoke openly with one another, in love.  

Next month is our 43-wedding anniversary.  That's a very long time to care for one another.  But love does fade sometimes, and the thing is life is very short and too precious to waste on mediocre.  So slowly we will separate into different households, we will be kind to one another and honor each other and help each other as needed in this shift. 
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In The Meantime....
There is good news...I'm painting again!  Painting sometimes starts out as an idea you had, and you go about making it happen...then it doesn't quite look like what was in your mind. 
Sometimes it never even gets very far at all before I'm covering up the background and starting from a different perspective. 

So many of my paintings started with a solid plan only to be hi-jacked by creativity.  If my idea doesn't create an excitement in me, if it fails to speak the message of light then I find I'm trying to figure out something else to either paint or how to fix this one.  Often, I am figuring it out along my way, until it feels right.  

My current painting is called "The Guardian" It's about how we are divinely protected and guided by our guardian angels, it is a part of the "Angels Among Us Series".  I have often felt this guardian.  We have been together since the conception of my existence.  In the painting I am trying to create a portal of protection.  I have already painted an angel on it and then tonight covered it all up.  Trial and error and then it happens...the magical moment when it finally comes together and you see its beauty and you're willing to share it with the world.  
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 This is just a rough beginning of the painting and my process with it.  It has already evolved from this picture.  We are constantly learning and growing, and when we listen intently to that still small voice within, we sometimes find out what's not working and make the bold moves to change it, which is so brave and not at all easy. 

This is not only the ebb and flow of my painting process, but also in my real life.  

So more than ever, I thank you all for being here and supporting my art and life journey.  
I appreciate that your here.  
It means so much to me.  
More art coming!  
You are the light of love...
​Johanna