Scary isn't as scary anymore

Hello friends, March has been a month of expanding. 
It's my birthday month,
and as a good friend said time to celebrate another year's journey around the sun. 

So many new experiences are saying yes to me, try this, you're going in the right direction.  I wrote a children's book, still in the finishing stages. This was something I have wanted to do for years, and I finally took the time to try my hand at it.  I am excited to share it with you as soon as I have it in my hands and give it as a gift to my daughters and granddaughters. I am also on a new adventure with Spirit that has the possibility to expand into a "Movement".  It feels way bigger than me.  My job is to keep showing up, consistently and having fun while I do.  We don't need to know how it will happen, instead trust the flow, the ideas coming to you, pay attention and just take the next right step.  How about you?  Where is your expansion taking you?

The thing I have noticed is that every time I am on the edge of stepping into new territory where growth lives, resistance often show's up with it. 
In my mind I may know that I am safe, my spirit may already be soaring, but the body does not lie. 

Sometimes my body needs more time to trust the expansion.
Resistance is not the enemy.  It is the body's way of saying, "This is new.  Let me catch up". 
I notice it in the way of tension in my shoulders, the clenching of my teeth at night, it is the proof of growth.  It is the echo of fear dissolving; the residue of old stories being released.   
Does this happen to you?  

When you decide to take the next right step, something beautiful happens: the support you need appears.  Some call it synchronicity.  
But have you ever noticed that suddenly the photographer you've been thinking about or looking for suddenly appears...the little coincidences, you mention you are just thinking about it, and somebody knows somebody, and the funny thing is you already knew this person but didn't know they were a photographer.  It's like the universe heard you months ago and already provided, but you weren't quite there yet...so it was just waiting until your yes was yes.  Then the money appears, you get paid for a job you did over a year ago, so any resistance in this area has been taken care of.  Suddenly everything aligns, the path opens, not because the fear is gone, but because you chose to walk through it anyway.  You said yes, without wavering in doubt, but instead you are living in certainty.

I showed up and said "YES" to the scary thing.
The first steps to anything in growth is allowing yourself to try something new, to say yes to whatever it is.  
I showed up to my photo shoot this month. For days before hand, resistance lived in my body--the nervous signs of teeth grinding at night, neck tense, jaw tight, looking over all the outfits...more than once This was something I had been thinking I wanted to do, along with all my art being photographed also.  Evern though I had already walked through the fear of saying yes and making the appointment, I was getting ready to enter new territory-my nervous system still clung to its old armor.  
Then the excuses before I even started.   I didn't know a photographer here in Oaxaca. 
It meant I needed my art to be at a place of being ready and having enough art completed to warrant the cost of a shoot.  
Then the body judgement I had in my mind of being seen, of being heard, combatting all the old negative stories and shifting my mindset into one of love, one of loving myself, showing up for me, smiling at me. 
I am ready to be seen and I'm not hiding anymore; I can share the most vulnerable places within me and that includes my unique voice and the truths of my experiences.  

RESISTANCE IS NOW MY SACRED THRESHOLD  
Each time I cross it, I discover that the "scary" thing was never truly scary at all--it was simply the doorway to freedom.  

So, I honor my body's resistance as part of the ceremony.  
I breathe into the tightness, I whisper reassurance:
"We are safe.  we are free to grow."
Slowly, the body learns to soften into the expansion.

I used to tell my ego.
Were just going to try this and if we didn't like it, we could go back to the old way.  I told my ego that if it didn't have something nice to say; then just go sit on a fence until it wanted to play nice.  You know those not so nice voices.  
But now I laugh a bit at this...because there is no going back. I am standing in my own power and it's stronger than I once thought.  My ego has joined my heart and soul, and I find I walk in peace.  
I just keep moving forward, I keep expanding and with joy! 
Expanding with Joy, I think this is a book that I want to write, not because I have to, but because I can, I get to. 
​It is my life...learning to expand with JOY!

The photo shoot was more than images-it was initiation.  A reminder that showing up, even trembling, is enough. ​

That scary isn't scary anymore.

Just laugh at it and have fun.
"Where is resistance showing up in your body today, and what new horizon might it be guarding?"

"The world is changing at a pace that asks us all to be brave.  Resistance may tighten our jaws, stiffen our necks, or whisper that we aren't ready.  But each time we step forward, we discover that scary isn't scary anymore.  These thresholds are not just personal-they are collective.  We are all learning to soften into new horizons together."

"And so, I step forward, jaw unclenched, heart open, into the horizon that once felt frightening. 
Scary is simply the threshold of becoming. 
May we all honor resistance as the sacred gatekeeper of our growth
and walk together into the new world that is waiting for us."

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